I want more from my life. I want to go back to school and work towards a career that I love and makes me better money. I have been thinknig about ti for awhile now. I'll admit. My sister in law has inspired me to go back to school. She is and she is in her 40's. I am proud of her for getting out there and going for something better. I just wish we had the money so I can enroll. I can do all basic classes and work would pay for them, but once I have to go further I am on my own paying and hopefully I can get some help with that.
I don't want to stay at the company I am at now forever. I don't want to be one of those employees that have made it to 20 years. I want better. Some of those I work with really get under my skin and some who I once thought were friends have showed how different I really am from them. It amazes me how something small can tell you so much about a person.
I sat and thought about this today. How much I want to do something else. For now I am going to be grateful I have this job, since so many others don't have a job at all. I just want better, something to feel really proud of. I hope I can achieve that.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Crazy Night
So yesterday was my daugther's Aunt's wedding. It was an outdoor wedding. It was beautiful and the weather was awesome, until the evening. The wedding was at 4 and we were there until 12:30 I believe. It was nice to spend time with our family there and see old friends. Abri's stepmom and I started drinking at 9 or so. We all danced the night away,took pics and just had a wonderful time. She left early(they live next door to where the wedding was) and went to bed.We left once the night was over. Both my girls had a great time and were tired out lol.
I spent the ride home going in and out of sleep(thanks to my drinking..wine that is) and of course the moving of the car made me feel sick so I kept waking up. We were almost home and I almost had to have hubby pull over, but thankfully I made it. When Iw as younger I never got sick or even had hangovers, I do no..ugh. So yea I got sick as soon as we got home. I went right to the bathroom. Not fun. The scary part of the evening for me was when I got done in the bathroom I had a small convo with my husband and walked to the living room. I don't remember anything after that. Apparently I laid on the couch and when my daugther was ready for bed I put her to bed, came back out and fell asleep for the next hour and a half while my husband played online. I somehow managed after that to get myself to bed. I woke up at 6 to use the bathroom and realized I never changed into jammies, no showered before I went to bed. That when I realized I remembered nothing after getting sick. I have never had that happen to me ever and it really scared me. I will be careful with wine from now on. Sticking to having a glass here and there.
Despite all that I had a good time,even with a small conflict between my husband and my daughters dad/stepmom that thankfully got worked out with no fighting. I can't believe I typed this all out.
I spent the ride home going in and out of sleep(thanks to my drinking..wine that is) and of course the moving of the car made me feel sick so I kept waking up. We were almost home and I almost had to have hubby pull over, but thankfully I made it. When Iw as younger I never got sick or even had hangovers, I do no..ugh. So yea I got sick as soon as we got home. I went right to the bathroom. Not fun. The scary part of the evening for me was when I got done in the bathroom I had a small convo with my husband and walked to the living room. I don't remember anything after that. Apparently I laid on the couch and when my daugther was ready for bed I put her to bed, came back out and fell asleep for the next hour and a half while my husband played online. I somehow managed after that to get myself to bed. I woke up at 6 to use the bathroom and realized I never changed into jammies, no showered before I went to bed. That when I realized I remembered nothing after getting sick. I have never had that happen to me ever and it really scared me. I will be careful with wine from now on. Sticking to having a glass here and there.
Despite all that I had a good time,even with a small conflict between my husband and my daughters dad/stepmom that thankfully got worked out with no fighting. I can't believe I typed this all out.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
My life lately
So its been since November since I wrote here. Been far to long.
Lets see whats happened in my life since.
I have a new niece she was born Feb10,2009. I adore her and am such a proud auntie. She has an amazing sister Aubrey Jo, who I love. She makes me laugh with all her silliness. I am loving more and more my every other Sundays with my family. Not that I haven't before I guess I am finding more meaning to them.
I have learned alot about myself. I have found people who I know believe in me and cherish having my friendship/love. I have also realized that some friendships have maybe run there course and even though I am finding it hard to let go of them, in my heart I know its for the best. I realize some people grow and change. I guess with one friendship I thought it would never change and realizing now it has changed. Of course not wanting to be friends again with someone else has caused a major ripple in the friendship. I can't help those feelings and I wish it was understood. Instead I am being treated like crap for it.
I have been reading ALOT these days. I am finding I love vampire,werewolf,witches or just pretty much any supernatural thing is peaking my interests. I guess reading has taken me out of the reality that is hurting me. It gives me a outlet that these days I need.
So there is a bit of an update for you. I need to come blog more. Its another good outlet and I have missed it.
Oh and both my girls are done with school for the summer. I officially have a 2nd grade and 6th grader. Wow where does the time go?
Lets see whats happened in my life since.
I have a new niece she was born Feb10,2009. I adore her and am such a proud auntie. She has an amazing sister Aubrey Jo, who I love. She makes me laugh with all her silliness. I am loving more and more my every other Sundays with my family. Not that I haven't before I guess I am finding more meaning to them.
I have learned alot about myself. I have found people who I know believe in me and cherish having my friendship/love. I have also realized that some friendships have maybe run there course and even though I am finding it hard to let go of them, in my heart I know its for the best. I realize some people grow and change. I guess with one friendship I thought it would never change and realizing now it has changed. Of course not wanting to be friends again with someone else has caused a major ripple in the friendship. I can't help those feelings and I wish it was understood. Instead I am being treated like crap for it.
I have been reading ALOT these days. I am finding I love vampire,werewolf,witches or just pretty much any supernatural thing is peaking my interests. I guess reading has taken me out of the reality that is hurting me. It gives me a outlet that these days I need.
So there is a bit of an update for you. I need to come blog more. Its another good outlet and I have missed it.
Oh and both my girls are done with school for the summer. I officially have a 2nd grade and 6th grader. Wow where does the time go?
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